All too familiar, yet so unwelcome.

I don't think I can begin to tell you how much I loathe snow. This is the third BIG snow we've had in a month. It's gotten to the point that no one even posts about it on facebook anymore because we're all sick of talking about it!!

Days like today (my only day off) would normally be good for errands. Today is good for.... Planning my shoveling adventure and maybe eating some food. It's spring, right?!?! Go home, Mother Nature. You're drunk!!!

My all-too familiar view. I'm sick of it!!

Third Time's a Charm (and BETTER be the last!)

You know, some people go through life never finding out what they want to be. Some people, like myself, flounder around and do different things forever. Or until they're old enough to retire. I feel like I'm one of these people for a simple reason:

I live by the rule "Work to LIVE, never LIVE to work."

So maybe to me, a job is just a job. When I was younger, ALL I wanted to be was a court reporter. For years I talked about it. I researched til there was nothing left to find. When that dream was yanked from me, I really didn't know what to do next. And that... is why I'm here.

The first time I went to college, it was to fulfill an A+ scholarship that I was originally intending to use for court reporting. I was forced to pick a major, so I picked something I knew would be easy. Behold the AAS in Office Administration! Perhaps the most worthless degree known to man. Why? Because you don't need no stinkin' degree to do office work! The longer I had been out of school, the harder it was to find a job MAINLY because of the recession (and everyone was holding onto their jobs for dear life) but also because the jobs I was applying for were being given to people with more experience in the field.  That's why I'm massaging full time right now...

The second venture into school was purely for something I wanted to do. I had taken a liking to massage and thought (once again) I had my life figured out. I was going to get through school and be licensed, then work in the medical field with it. You know, with a PT or chiropractor. I wanted to HELP people, not just relax them. And, to make things more promising, I was promised a job with a local chiro. Little did I know that he would be a crook and completely screw me over at the last minute. So, I landed at the spa. And here I am, 6 years later still working in the service industry where I never wanted to be. Don't get me wrong... it has been good to me. It just wasn't my dream. And really, in this part of the country the medical thing just doesn't happen much. Maybe in a bigger city, but even then the insurance companies won't pay unless it's prescribed for a work or car accident. I just didn't realize how difficult it would be to work somewhere other than a spa doing massage.

So needless to say, I'm tired of going to school and even MORE tired of it getting me nowhere. Some people would just make the best of what they've got and work jobs they hate to get them by. But as much as I work to live, I can't be miserable doing it. Here's to hoping this will be the LAST TIME I owe anyone student loans. G'grief.

Crisis Averted.

So...
Since the last time I blogged, some things have been settled and I can think a little more clearly. Basically, I was told by a rather reputable source (my mother, who works in the financial aid office) that since the program I'm aiming for was to be funded by grants, I wasn't going to be "eligible" because I work... and don't mooch off the government.
I FINALLY got a meeting with the director, and lucky for me they have already thought of these things and have found a way to bypass them. Basically, they can classify a student however they want to make sure they can receive the grant. So that's the good news. The bad news is, by the time I'm ready to start, the grant will probably be gone. She said, "Well you know, the government is a mess. So I don't expect to have it for more than a year."

*sigh*

Whatever. One of the things that really drew me in was the fact that my tuition would be covered, but now that I'm here... and doing things... I'm just ready to move to the next chapter in my life, even if it means paying tuition and having student loans. Again. I really don't have a choice since everything is in the works.

So now that I know I'm not wasting my time with these prerequisites, it's back to the original plan. More details to come. It's Spring Break (which means 2 days off this week for me!-- don't tell work.), so I'll have some extra time on my hands. Might as well blog.

My Absence

Y'all... I haven't written in a while. A long while. Plain and simple, I've been busy.
And stressed out.

Stressed to the point that I've shut down. I still function, but it's on fumes. And I haven't been a pleasant person lately.

We'll just say that I have a very important meeting coming up that pertains to school (the whole reason I sit here and write) that may or may not change EVERYTHING I thought I was doing. More on that after it unfolds, but until then.... I'll stay shut down. It's just too much to think about and have to write about something else.

Trust me though, I've got all KINDS of blogs planned.

See ya later this week. Maybe. If I'm not in jail for killing someone.