Down

Today I am having a very hard time with my life-changing decision.
I know I said I was done listening to strangers, but it's hard to ignore a doctor who is closely related to the field I'm going into.
....who repeatedly asked me if I had checked the job outlook, and said I needed to go in "with eyes wide open." He was politely trying to tell me there were no jobs to be had for my field.

I tried to stay calm about it and play it off. But inside I was really, really hurt.  I don't make it a point to bring up this conversation-- it just happens, which is why I'm afraid that it's for a reason. Am I supposed to be taking something from these people who put down my dreams? Maybe it's a huge hint and I'm an idiot if I don't take it to heart. MAYBE, just like everything else I've experienced, it's not meant to be and I'm actually just wasting my time.
It breaks my heart to even think about.

I don't know what to do with the information I was given today. I sure wish someone/something had made a plan for my life like so many others seem to have. Or at least one that makes sense. It's completely self-loathing to say this, but I'm sick of being the strong person who is given things because they can handle them. Today is not a good day.